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I believe there will be a point in our life that will define who we are. those points can be the time of hardship as well as the time of ease ior even a single short conversation with someone you recently know. That's one of the moment I experience today! الحمد لله رب العالمين  I spoke to a sister whom I knew recently and we share about the worry we have on how much time we invest to build our relationship with Allah while we also try to build the next generations (our children). Often, we (me specifically) miss to have the time to just sit and recite Quran as long as we want to, pray as khusyu' as we want to, contemplate on life without any distruction but she said one sentence that it's not the first time I heard but this time it just click and make sense more than ever before. "This is just a phase we have to go through sis, soon the kids will grow up and being independent then we can pick up on what we left off.  for the time being,  keep remind yourself that we ar...

10 September 2014 This is the day rumaysa khalifah born 2 years ago MashaAllah time flies and Alhamdulillah she is growing up well and she's full of life MashaAllah tabarakallah May Allah protects her and bless her with goodness of life and piety Amin  10 September 2014  It's also the first time my big girl starts reception class aka proper school with uniform etc MashaAllah! I was so nervous the night before. I might be too excited but worry at the same time. Excited because she will be in the school the whole 5 days from 8am to 2:30pm. Prior to this one she only went for 2 and a half days at Iman pre school which is literally next door. But now we have to travel around 25 minutes by car and the school time starts very early, well at least earlier than any normal state school.  الحمد لله رب العالمين she was generally exicited since she has meet the teacher twice before she even started. Once was on induction day and second time was when the teacher visited our house. ماش...

Few days ago when we just came back from out and about my 4 years and 10 months old daughter said to me (out of the blue):  "Wow mama, you're doing everything!" I asked: "What do you mean Nusaybah?" Well, you're a doctor (I don't know why she highlighted this role first- perhaps it's because I just put a bandage on her finger- and you're a driver, you're a cleaner, you're a cook, you're a book reader, you are everything.  Me:" Awww that's very sweet of you Nusaybah, jazakillah khair for those kind words" N:"no wonder you're tired all the time, because you're doing everything!" Me:" errmmmm yes maybe that's why" Children always speak the truth, in fact, when I read her bedtime story I often fall asleep before it's even finished and then I mumbled in Indonesian language. She would then laugh. The strange things: she seems enjoying that kind of situation so she usually str...

Nusaybah likes a story telling time. Often I am the one who give up due to the tiredness after long reading and answering all questions she is having related to the story we read it or I tell. One of her favourite story is the Prophet Adam's story Here are aome funny comments she made. I was telling her: "due to the mistake that prophet Adam a.s made, Allah sent him down to the earth. And from him and hawa born mankind including us.  We are the children of Adam or in Arabic is called BANI Adam" Nusaybah:"why prophet Adam become BUNNY (read: Bani) mama?" I didn't understand what she meant so I asked her: "what do you mean?" I didn't say he became "bunny" Nusaybah: "yes you did mama, you said we are BUNNY Adam" I was laughing out loud! Apparently she thought BANI as BUNNY  Well it sounds the same, no wonder she thought that way  --------------------- Another occasion is when Nusaybah suddenly asked me Nusaybah:" mama, do ...

Seperti Itu Dakwah.. (Alm Ust Rahmat Abdullah)   Memang seperti itu dakwah. Dakwah adalah cinta. Dan cinta akan meminta semuanya dari dirimu. Sampai pikiranmu. Sampai perhatianmu. Berjalan, duduk, dan tidurmu. Bahkan di tengah lelapmu, isi mimpimu pun tentang dakwah. Tentang umat yg kau cintai. Lagi-lagi memang seperti itu. Dakwah. Menyedot saripati energimu. Sampai tulang belulangmu. Sampai daging terakhir yg menempel di tubuh rentamu. Tubuh yg luluh lantak diseret-seret...  Tubuh yang hancur lebur dipaksa berlari. Seperti itu pula kejadiannya pada rambut Rasulullah. Beliau memang akan tua juga. Tapi kepalanya beruban karena beban berat dari ayat yg diturunkan Allah. Sebagaimana tubuh mulia Umar bin Abdul Aziz. Dia memimpin hanya sebentar. Tapi kaum muslimin sudah dibuat bingung. Tidak ada lagi orang miskin yg bisa diberi sedekah. Tubuh mulia itu terkoyak-koyak. Sulit membayangkan sekeras apa sang Khalifah bekerja. Tubuh yang segar bugar itu sampai rontok. Hanya dalam 2 tahun...

Conversation that makes me laugh out loud last night Me:"ouch, I am having a stomachache" Nusaybah:"why mama?" Me:"not sure, maybe it's because of the food I ate" Nusaybah:"what did you eat today?" Me:"well, I had toast for breakfast and ermmmmm... egg for dinner" Nusaybah:"ahhh now I know, why mama!" *She was beaming because she found the cause of it!* Me:"why?" Nusaybah:" it's because you eat egg that's why you got stomach-egg (read: stomachache)  😁😀😀😀😁 I can't stop laughing! she pronounced "stomachache" correctly though but I think she heard me saying "stomachache" sounded like "stomach-egg"#BlameTheMom

Nusaybah is always excited about numbers and she likes a bit mathematical qs 😜 perhaps it's because she is currently learning about it in nursery, she's starting to ask how old I'm and how old her baba is and commented:  "Wow, that's a lot of number mama!!  You and baba are very old" Ouch!!! but then she asked Nusaybah: "mama, how old are you then when I'm your age?" Me:"If Allah سبحانه و تعالى still give me life, I will be 68 years old!" N:"wooow!! And how old are you when I'm 68 then?" Me:"oh well, I will be more than 100 years old Nusaybah, why!? She didn't stop there "And how old are you when I'm 100 years old?" Me:" I won't be in this duniya I guess, wallahu 'alam"  N:"why mama?" Me:"because most likely I am dead by then, what it means, Allah takes me back to meet Him" N:"and go to Jannah?" Me:" ان شاءٓ الله, I pr...