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I saw the letter Nusaybah wrote for her best friend at school. 
Her name is Aleena. I can sense the love she's having towards her. One day she told me that teacher asked her to present her journal and explain what she has written during reception year.
Aleena was the only friend who gave her encouragement by giving two thumbs up and wide smile while she stood in front of everyone.
After she narrated that story, she broke down to tears. She told me that it was a happy tears for she's having such a wonderful friends. 
I cried and touched with her reaction. At the end we hugged each other tightly And cried together!
I can imagine how special for Nusaybah to have a friend who always see goodness in her.  Aleena was one of them or perhaps the only one in her classroom. 
O Allah ﷻ protects our children from any bad influence and make them strong in the Deen and see the best from others around them.  اللهمّ امين يا ربّ العالمين


Knowledge is light and the light of Allah ﷻ is not bestowed upon a sinner.
Yes everyone will commit sins in one thing or the other because that's the made up of human being but the sinner it's referring here is the one who knows that s/he is committing sins and proud of it, spreads it, don't ask forgiveness of Allah ﷻ from it and continues doing it after reminder from those around her/him.
Indeed the one who wants and has been trying to understand the Deen are the fortunate one!
Mu’awiya reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, 
“If Allah intends goodness for someone, He gives him understanding of the religion.”
Source: Sahih Bukhari 71, Sahih Muslim 1037
Grade: Muttafaqun Alayhi (authenticity agreed upon) according to Al-Bukhari and Muslim
عَنْ مُعَاوِيَةَ قَالَ قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه و سلم مَنْ يُرِدْ اللَّهُ بِهِ خَيْرًا يُفَقِّهْهُ فِي الدِّينِ
71 صحيح البخاري كتاب العلم باب من يرد الله به خيرا يفقهه في الدين
1037 صحيح مسلم كتاب الزك…

{percakapan} Allah ﷻ and Google

As I was vacuuming the floor, Nusaybah was enjoying to look at the map and she's trying to impress me by showing me how she knew where Indonesia and Ethiopia is and then she said:
"Mama.. I know what's the largest country in the world!"
I said:" what is it?"
Nusaybah:" it's Russia!"
"Well done, Sayang" I said
Then she asked again:" how many people is in Russia, Mama?"
"Oh... I am not sure Nusaybah.. It must be millions"
Nusaybah:"I know who knows! It's only Allah ﷻ and GOOGLE Know how many people in Russia is! Isn't it mama?"
I laughed and laughed and laughed and said:
"Yes! You're Absolutely right! But Google is only search engine made by human being"
Nusaybah: "...and human being doesn't know everything....only Allah ﷻ knows everything!"
Me:"exactly, so Google wouldn't know everything but perhaps it knows more than Mama"
And then ....She is content 
الحمد لله رب الع…

{percakapan} heavy weight

Once upon a time..
as any mothers know, often it is very difficult to make the kids walk quickly home. They dragged themselves and one of my trick to make them walk faster is by telling them to compete (with one another) running from the main road into the house (dead end road)
I have to pretend to participate and let them win for the sake of it and as usual that day I came last and Nusaybah is the first and Rumaysa second. 
Nusaybah then commented:
"Mama, I know why you always came last.."
"Why?" I asked
"It's because I am the skinniest amongst you and Adek, so I'm very light, Rumaysa is lighter then you and you are the heaviest and the widest, I mean you have the largest size so it's too heavy for you to run!"
Again she made me laugh and I come to understand the saying: kids always tell the truth! (Unless they have been corrupted lol) 
"Aaah... Actually that makes sense Nusaybah" 
That's all I can say to her!

{percakapan} experts

This morning during breakfast 
Husband asked me to help him with something (can't remember go be exact) 
All of a sudden my older daughter asked 
Nusaybah:"mama, how can you be soo good at so many things?"
Me:"oh that's very nice of you Nusaybah, But am I? What make you think like that?"
Nusaybah:"it's because baba is always asking help from you, it's all because you are very good at so many things"
Awwwww *melt!!!* it did brought tears to my eyes and made my day and I was saying to myself that I can't and don't  want to forget this day!!!!
Allahu yubarik laha
I know for a fact I am faaaaar from knowing so many things but it's just feel good when your little child acknowledge you (whatever they think of) and express it!  -----------
The other day Nusaybah was with Rumaysa in the living room while I was In the kitchen (cleaning up as usual 😬)
She then ran to me and brought 3 books (Arabic alphabets, Arabic numbers and toddler book) she tol…

[percakapan] a wife?

Once Upon the time when we were in the car as I was driving back from Nusaybah's swimming class, my girl Nusaybah who is five years old asked me
Nusaybah:" mama, what is "a wife" mean?" Me:"Errmmmm... A wife is a woman who is married to a man, for example mama, I am baba's wife" because I am married to baba
Nusaybah:" do I have to get married when i grown up?"
Me:"I would think so, what do you think?"
Nusaybah:"I will get married, but what happen if there is no men left?"
Me:* laughing*" what do you mean?"
Nusaybah:" what happen if all the men are married?"
Me:" what make you think like that?"
Nusaybah:"because when I looked around, I saw all the men are married"
Me:"how do you know Nusaybah?"
Nusaybah:"they walk with women or they hold their children hands"
Me: "but look at that man!(there was a man walking on his own), he is not with a woman nor a child&q…

I miss you mom!

You were always there when I need you to share my thoughts and feeling
You never failed to lend me your ears when I needed someone to listen to
You gave me ease to just show all the feelings I had inside 
You would ask me questions after each stories I told, it just showed how much you cared 
You never doubt in my strength and ability to face anything in this life 
You never gave a chance for an empty and loneliness crept inside me hence you never ceased to call me each morning when I lived miles away from you 
Just a "hello" hi or Salam and knowing I was okay was enough to make you happy and cheerful
I didn't understand at that time why you did it All I knew that you missed me, and you couldn't wait the day I went home and visited you
I was in my own world  I was ignorant and practically blind
Blind on how much you have loved me Blind on how much pain you went through to just let your youngest daughters live far apart from you when she was only 15 years old Blind on how much sac…

To my beloved father

He's the most patient person and strong soul I have ever known. He was the main carer for my mom when she was ill with multiple myeloma (blood plasm cancer) while I was 5 hours away (by car) from them due to university study that I had to do in another town. 
He cooked, cleaned, cared and fulfil every needs that my mom had. 
Never once, I heard him complained about the situation. He remained strong and persevered while I was crumbling down, what he did for his wife was extraordinary. The love he had for his wife can be seen even after 11 years she departed from him to meet her Lord!
It indeed reminded me the love the prophet Muhammad ﷺ to his wife: Khadija RA **
He's a very simple man, with not many words but his dedication, strength, patience, loyalty and love are inspirational and for sure ONE OF A KIND And I am proud to be his daughter.
May Allah ﷻ loves him and grants barakah to his life and may Allah ﷻ grans him health and happiness and may Allah ﷻ continues to give me opportu…


Gara gara baca ada artis maudya Ayunda yang sefie sama PM Inggris, dan punya Instagram yang di ikuti 2,8 miliar orang, aku jadi Kepo siapa dia heheh ماشاء الله  ternyata dia memang mahasiswa Oxford University jurusan filosofi, politik dan ekonomi masuk tahun ketiga sekarang.
Dia sekolah SMA di BIS alias British International School dan seseorang dengan iMulti talenta.
Ujung2nya aku cari berapa biaya sekolah di BIS dan melongo aku dibuatnya 
Untuk siswa SMA, Setahunnya  setiap anak harus bayar lebih dari £15000 atau sekitar 318 juta!!!!!
سبحان الله 
Disini, sekolah milik negara alias state School gratis (tentu dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangannya).
Banyak dari teman2 saya yang lebih memilih Home schooling karena berbagai alasan, salah satu teman dekat saya meyakini: pendidikan di Inggris banyak mengejar target Pemerintah (hasil dan nilai akademis Saja) tanpa mempedulikan ada proses "nurture" anak2 dengan nilai2 mulia.
Wajar memang! Karena di sini negara sekuler, kalaulah diajarkan…

Ramadan reflection

This is beautiful & worth reading..
Very beneficial ...
------- Many of us feel inadequate this Ramadan. Long hours of fasting with short nights makes it hard for those of us who are parents of young kids, or those of us working full time, or those of us who are unable to fast, "FEEL" Ramadan. We can't do the extra worship we used to and even when we get in our extra Qur'an or pray in the mosque we can't even concentrate, so we end up just feeling lame.
But what we really need is a perspective shift.
We need to recognize that taking care of the future generation, providing financial support for ourselves and loved ones or taking care of our health are some of the highest forms of worship in and of themselves. We just need to make the intention and internally shift our perspectives.
Give yourself 5 minutes, just you and Allah swt. Sit and raise your hands and share what's in your heart with Him in your own words, even though He is well aware of it. Allow the bur…

Quotes of Umar ibn khatab RA

Some of the best quotes by "Ameerul Mu'mineen" Umar ibnul Khattab (ra), the second Khalifah of Islam 
"Get used to a tough life, for luxury does not last forever" — Umar ibnul Khattab (ra) 
"I have never regretted my silence. As for my speech I've regretted it many times"  —Umar ibnul Khattab (ra) 
“Allah loves moderation and hates extravagance and excess.”Umar Ibn Khattab (ra)
"I thought of all types of wealth, but couldn't find a better wealth than contentment in a little" — Umar ibnul Khattab (ra)
"Let not your love become attachment, nor your hate become destruction.” —  Umar ibnul-khattab {ra}
“May God bless the man who says less and does more.” —  ‘Umar ibnul Khattab (ra)
“Patience is the healthiest ingredient of our life.” —  Umar Ibnul-Khattab (ra)
“Doing good for a good done to you is simply repayment, whereas doing good for an evil done to you is a tremendous virtue.”'Umar ibnul Khattab (ra)
Umar ibnul Khattab (ra) said: ”Invite …

Ramadhan with Nusaybah

Yesterday was the first time my Nusaybah (5 years and 7 months) attempted to fast from lunch (1:30pm) till maghrib (9:24pm).  she wasn't complaining ماشاء الله  apart from the time she saw her little sister had dinner at 6pm! Lol
When ifthar time arrived, I could see the excitement and happiness, while we were sitting and made دعاء together on the dinner table, she kept asking:" can I eat now? Is it time for ifthar now?" For 5-6 times! 
I then reminded her the Hadith about the two happiness of those who fast 1. When they break their fast 2. When they meet Allah ﷻ due to the reward of their fasting
She eventually understood and stopped asking
Today, I asked her again if she wants to fast again, she said:" I don't think so mama, I will be sooo hungry like yesterday" lols
She then asked: "so how long are you going to fast mama?"
"29 or 30 days ان شاءٓ الله " I said
What makes me happy and touched the most is her next comment:
"I hope the Ramadan w…

Ramadan Mubarak

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan
May this Ramadhan become life changing moment for us
May Allah ﷻ showers His blessing and forgiveness in this blessed month
May Allah ﷻ writes our name to be one of those who are freed from the hellfire 
May Allah ﷻ accepts our Siyaam, Salawat, ad'iyaat, ruku', sujuud and every good deeds we do
May Allah ﷻ grants us the ultimate result: being Al muttaqun
May Allah ﷻ grants the victory to Islam and Muslims very soon
اللهمّ امين يا ربّ العالمين 
Yumna/ Yuni and family ❤️

Ugly habits

OK, so you aren't an awful husband. But there are some pretty awful things you definitely don't want creeping into your marriage. 
Your wife deserves better than a husband with any of these 10 ugly habits.
1. Critical
Please watch yourself and don't get caught in the trap of criticizing your wife. Choose to see the good in your wife. Compliment her on all the things she is doing right. Next time you find yourself wanting to tell her something you don't like about her, switch it around and pay her a sincere compliment. She will love it.
2. Controlling
Believe it or not, you aren't always right. And your beautiful wife is actually very good at making her own decisions (and typically she makes very good decisions). So stop feeling like you need to control where she's going, what she's doing, how much she's spending and more. Instead of stressing about that, work together as a team, encouraging and supporting each other. Let your wife be her own person, and give…

Dalam sepi

Dalamnya hati tiada yang bisa mendugaLuasnya samudra tiada yang mampu menjelajahinya Demikian rasa yang aku indra Sulit untuk ku ungkap dengan kata kata
Makna yang terucap  tak sehebat dan tak sekuat  Hasrat untuk kau bisa menangkap 
Meski aku sudah berupaya sekuat tenaga Tetap saja aku hanya mampu diam seribu bahasa  Karena aku sendiri pun tak tahu Apa yang sebenarnya tersimpan jauh di lubuk hatiku 
Sedih senang gundah gulana Khawatir namun yakin
Bahwa aku bisa  Bisa selalu tegak menyambut hari yang baru Bisa untuk selalu melihat indahnya siang Tenangnya malam Bisa untuk merancang rencana ke depan  Tanpa merasa takut atau ragu Dan tentu tanpa merasa kesepian

She loves me

She went to the back garden and picked up the flowers and presented it to me and said: "Mama, I give you the flowers because I love you"
Awwwww Allahu yubarik laha.
Some Other time she said:
"Mama, can I give you a biiiig hug?"  "Of course, but Why?"I said
"Because I love you sooo much! I love you as much as water in the ocean. I love you as much as the leaves fall from the tree  I love you as much as the trees in the forest"
It melt my heart. ❤️❤️❤️
زُيِّنَ زُيِّنَ لِلنَّاسِ حُبُّ الشَّهَوَاتِ مِنَ النِّسَاء وَالْبَنِينَ وَالْقَنَاطِيرِ الْمُقَنطَرَةِ مِنَ الذَّهَبِ وَالْفِضَّةِ وَالْخَيْلِ الْمُسَوَّمَةِ وَالأَنْعَامِ وَالْحَرْثِ ذَلِكَ مَتَاعُ الْحَيَاةِ الدُّنْيَا وَاللّهُ عِندَهُ حُسْنُ الْمَآبِ {14 
Beautified for men is the love of things they covet; women, children, much of gold and silver (wealth), branded beautiful horses, cattle and well-tilled land. This is the pleasure of the present world's life; but Allah has the excellent return (Paradis…

Nusaybah and her advice!

Once upon a time.... I told Rumaysa to stop Playing with the tap and water in the bathroom (she loves playing with the water) and she kept saying "noo mama.. Nooooo..." (Imagine drama scene)
Using a slightly elevated tone of voice, I told Rumaysa: "if you don't stop and don't listen to mama, I will send you to the thinking corner for 2 minutes!!!".
Well.... Theoritically (lol) I shouldn't address the issue using an elevated tone. I should have calm, cool, collected. Yeah!! One of those days.
And then came Nusaybah reminding and addressing me (using teacher type of tone- calm and low pitch)
"Mama, it's not nice to speak like that to your own child... You should not shout, you should speak nicely, Allah wont be happy with you... So now say sorry to Rumaysa.."
Mak nyessssss!!!! (Apa ya Bahasa Inggrisnya??) 
It changed my mood instantly! I was so happy with the way she "handled" me and the situation. I smile at Nusaybah and follow her order..…